another stupidity

last night, i met him..his name's christian..i went to cubao to buy something tapos while on my way home, i saw this cutie guy who was loitering outside this gay disco/bar..i looked at him, head to toe..he looked back..tapos, medyo nagka-idea ako..sabi ko, "kailangang makilala ko to"..what aj wants, aj gets..bwahaha..pero i was reluctant so umalis ako and bought a stick of yosi..ibinuhos ko na lang sa yosi yung ilusyon ko..

when i came back dun sa area na yon, he was still there..actually, he looked more of a callboy kasi he was wearin black sando, plaid capri shorts and a sling bag..tapos naisip ko, sige i'll talk to him..so i gathered all my guts and approached him..yuck ang pokpok ko..i asked him something, if he knew this bar and we walked and talked and i found out that he came all the way from cavite, he said he went to manila to have some fun..alone..loner si kuya hahaha..he was waiting for this bar to open kaso 10 pm pa yata magbubukas..he said he wanted to drink..we sat dun sa place beside the bar..tapos we talked..sabi ko, i know a place somewhere na open na..there was an event there and all and so i explained..he said he wanted to come..so ako naman, na-tempt, so ayoko na siyang pakawalan..i told him i'll go home first, get some money and tell the folks i'd go out..kaso i cannot bring him inside the house, so he had to wait outside..

so ayun..bingo..i was able to bring him to this place..there were so many gays of all sorts, may drag queen, fashionista, cute ones and even girls..tapos dun sa 3rd floor, may mga rooms then we spent some hours there..til we got intimate..i massaged him first then he massaged me..tapos, before i knew it, he was already kissing my back and my neck until our lips met and we kissed torridly..we talked while makin out..like bakit di siya natakot na sumama sakin and why he trusted me agad..and mga ganung things..the event started so we watched..then we ate outside..then when we came back, sabi niya he would just roam around..tapos ako sabi ko sige..nakakainis lang..kasi he wanted to meet other people pa pala..so i just stayed in one corner then this guy approached me..kaso he wasnt my type, so ang ending i just told him yung sama ng loob ko with this christian guy..like after dragging him to this place eh maghahanap pa siya ng ibang people to talk to..i told him how i felt like sana nasa bahay ako at gumagawa ng thesis and that sana di na ko nagsplurge ng money tapos biglang yung iba di ko na mahanap dahil mukhang nalaglag from my pants..that siguro nakakarma ako for being so stubborn and all and stupid and lahat lahat na..tapos sabi ko sa guy which never ko inalam yung name, na i had to go and i had to look for christian.

tapos i saw him..he said he was lookin for me the whole time..tapos i asked him kung may na-meet siya..meron daw..then kung may nangyari, tapos wala daw..he said, di naman daw siya pumunta lang dun to have sex..tapos i asked him kung kinabahan siya na baka bigla ko siyang iwan..di naman daw..kasi naman yung stub niya, nasa akin, so pwede kong itakas yung bag niya..kaya sinabi ko sa kanya na "kung masama lang akong tao, iniwan na kita at tinangay ko na lahat ng mga gamit mo"..i dont know but he trusted me easily, kasi kung ako yun, i would never leave my stub sa kanya noh..then we left the place and decided to eat sa mcdonalds and magpaumaga..tapos i was blaming him kung bakit nawala yung money ko kasi nakarma ko and that he was really the temptation..nagkwentuhan more, bout his family, bout his previous works, bout my course, my school..tapos sabi ko kamukha siya nung dati kong love na straight..pati magsalita parang si A talaga..sabi lang niya "di yun straight"..then he had this chinese book tapos he was teaching me how to speak chinese..basta, kahit nun pa lang kami nagmeet, super gaan na ng loob ko sa kanya pati the way we converse parang super matagal na kaming magkakilala..and ang saya ko pa dahil i found my money sa jacket ko..

mga 6am na when we left mcdo..hinatid ko siya sa sakayan, then we parted ways tapos sabi lang namin sa isa't isa.."ingat"..he's back in cavite now, probably..di ko pa siya tinetext..smart kasi..wala siyang dalang phone papuntang manila para daw di siya kulitin ng nanay niya..feeling ko yung na yung last time naming pagkikita pero hopefully, he would text me if ever he wants to go back here since he doesnt have any friends here..

hay nako..ang tigas talaga nang ulo ko..alam mo yun, parati akong nakikipag-usap sa strangers..sorry na, ang pokpok ko ah..ang ending lagi, super nakakalungkot..sana lang one day, our path would cross again..parang "somewhere down the road, our roads are gonna cross again, it doesnt really matter when"..chos haha..

sana yung next time na makilala ko, yun na talaga..so ayun nga, moving on..back to reality at back to thesis mode..adios..toodles!